Part 2: Our Detroit Motorcycle Club Has A Pit Bull Named Mercy Who Has Walked Behind The Casket Of Every Brother We’ve Lost For Eleven Years. Last September We Buried Our President. Mercy Refused To Walk. Until We Opened The Casket.

I’m going to tell this slow. The slow part is the whole story.

My big brother Rook died on the morning of Sunday, September 8th, 2024, in his recliner in the living room of the small brick ranch house he had shared with his wife Mrs. Lyudmila Holloway-Demidov for 33 years on Florian Street in Hamtramck. He had been watching the Detroit Lions play the Los Angeles Rams in the 2024 season opener. He had a heart attack at 1:47 p.m.

Mercy had been on his lap when it happened.

Lyudmila found him at 2:14 p.m. when she came back from the grocery store. Mercy was still on his lap. She was making no sound. She was pressed against his chest. She was looking up at his face.

Lyudmila called 911. She called me. She called Bear.

Bear was there in seventeen minutes. I was there in twenty-three minutes. We got there before the medics could finish their work. We confirmed what we already knew.

I want to tell you what Mercy was doing when I walked into the living room of my brother’s house at 2:37 p.m. on the afternoon of September 8th, 2024.

She had moved off of Rook’s lap when the medics had laid him on the floor for resuscitation attempts. She had moved to a position about four feet from his body. She had laid down. She had laid her head on her front paws. She was watching his face.

She was not crying. She was not whimpering. She was not pacing.

She was just watching his face.

I knelt down on the carpet about three feet from her. I have known Mercy since she was 8 weeks old. She knows me. She did not look at me. She did not move.

I said, “Mercy. Sweetheart. He’s gone.”

She did not look at me.

She kept watching his face.

I went home that night. I came back the next morning. Mercy was in the same spot on the carpet — three feet from where Rook had been laid. Lyudmila told me she had stayed there all night. She had not eaten. She had drunk a small amount of water.

For the next six days — September 8th through September 13th — Mercy stayed at the house. She moved around. She ate. She drank. She let Lyudmila pet her. She let me sit on the couch with her. But every evening at 8:47 p.m. — the time of Rook’s official time of death recorded by the medics — she went to that exact spot on the carpet four feet from where his body had been, and she laid down there, and she stayed there until morning.

She was holding vigil.

She was doing the same job for him that she had done for eight brothers before him.

But she was doing it in his house instead of at a cemetery.

I think that should have told us something.

I think Bear understood it before any of us did.

I want to tell you about the morning of the funeral.

Saturday, September 14th, 2024. The funeral was scheduled for 10 a.m. at Hartwell-Bouchard Funeral Home on Mack Avenue in Grosse Pointe, with the burial at Mount Olivet Cemetery on the east side of Detroit at noon.

We had 200 bikers from twelve states.

Detroit MC. Hells Lovers. Iron Coffins. Sons of Silence. Renegade Wheels. Outlaws Detroit. Plus all 47 active members of our own Wayne County Iron Brothers. Plus 12 men from Rook’s old Army unit. Plus 31 former co-workers from GM Hamtramck Assembly. Plus my brother’s elderly widowed mother-in-law, Mrs. Ksenia Demidov-Bourget, 79 years old, who had flown in from Vladivostok the night before.

The casket was a solid oak box from a Hamtramck cabinetmaker named Mr. Marek Wisniewski-Pawlowski, 67 years old, who had built caskets for our club for 20 years at cost. The casket was strapped to the sidecar of Rook’s own 1953 Harley-Davidson Panhead — his favorite bike — which was going to lead the funeral procession.

Bear Castellanos-Strathmore — our VP — was going to drive the Panhead.

Bear had been Rook’s best friend for 31 years. They had served together in Panama in 1989. They had worked together at GM Hamtramck Assembly. They had ridden side-by-side on roughly 280,000 miles of road over the course of their friendship. Bear had been the godfather of Rook’s only daughter, Mrs. Anastasia Holloway-Demidov-Stallworth, 28 years old, a registered nurse at Henry Ford Hospital.

Bear had not slept in six days.

I want to tell you what he looked like that morning. He was 53. He was 6’2″. He weighed 240 pounds. He had a gray beard that came down to his sternum. He had a full-back tattoo of the Iron Brothers logo from his shoulder blades to the small of his back, done over 11 sittings in 1994. He was wearing his colors — the leather vest of the Wayne County Iron Brothers with the rocker patches, the President flash (he had been promoted to interim President at 6 a.m. that morning by unanimous vote of the membership), and a small black armband Lyudmila had sewn for him.

He had been crying for six days. He was not crying that morning. He had cried himself out.

At 9:23 a.m., Lyudmila brought Mercy out of her car. Mercy was wearing her funeral collar — a leather collar with a small silver Maltese cross that Rook had bought her in 2014 after her first funeral procession. She was on a leather lead.

Lyudmila walked her across the asphalt of the funeral home parking lot toward the Harley with the casket.

Mercy walked slowly. Her tail was down but not tucked. She was looking at the casket. She was not looking at any of the 200 bikers standing on the asphalt.

She walked all the way up to the back of the Harley.

She stopped about four feet from the casket.

She looked at it.

She tilted her head slightly.

She sat down on the asphalt.

Lyudmila said, very softly, “Mercy. Go with Daddy.”

Mercy did not move.

Lyudmila said again, “Mercy. Sweetheart. Walk with Daddy.”

Mercy looked up at Lyudmila.

She looked at the casket.

She did not move.

For three minutes, the parking lot was completely silent.

I want to tell you what 200 bikers standing in complete silence sounds like. It is not actually silent. It is the sound of 200 men and women not breathing in unison. It is the sound of leather creaking when somebody shifts their weight. It is the sound of a flag on the funeral home pole snapping in a soft September wind. It is the sound of one 13-year-old Pit Bull’s breathing being the loudest thing in a parking lot of 200 hardened bikers.

At the three-minute mark, Bear walked across the asphalt.

He walked slowly. His boots scuffed on the pavement. He knelt down on his right knee in front of Mercy. His left knee had been replaced in 2019 and he could not kneel on it.

He looked her in the eye.

He said, “Mercy. Honey. Go with him. It’s time.”

Mercy looked at Bear.

She looked at the casket.

She did not move.

She thumped her tail once.

Then she looked back at Bear with an expression I will not forget.

It was not stubbornness. It was not grief. It was not refusal.

It was a question.

Bear sat back on his heels.

He stayed there for almost a minute. He had his hands folded together in front of him. He had tears running down his face. He was not making a sound.

Then he stood up — slowly, because of his bad knee — and he turned around to face 200 bikers.

He said, in a voice that was steady but loud enough to reach the back row:

“Brothers and sisters. Mercy will not walk with him because she does not believe it is him. We have to give her the choice.”

Eleven words.

Two hundred bikers exhaled at the same time.

I want to tell you what happened next.

Bear walked to the back of the Harley. He unfastened the leather straps that held the casket lid closed. He had to use a small folding knife from his belt to cut one of the straps because it had been knotted too tightly. He lifted the lid of the casket.

The interior of the casket was lined with the deep blue of Rook’s Iron Brothers vest, which Lyudmila had laid over his chest. Rook was inside. He looked like himself. He looked like he was sleeping. He had his hands folded over his vest. His gray-streaked black beard had been combed by Mr. Marek Wisniewski-Pawlowski, the cabinetmaker, who had also been Rook’s barber for 17 years.

Bear stepped aside.

He looked at Mercy.

He said, “Mercy. Come see Daddy.”

For about ten seconds, nothing happened.

Then Mercy stood up.

She walked across the asphalt. Slowly. Each step was deliberate. She was 13 years old. Her hips were stiff. She had a small limp in her left front paw. She walked the twenty feet between her spot in the parking lot and the back of the Harley.

She reached the Harley.

She rose up on her hind legs.

Her front paws came up to the edge of the sidecar. She placed them carefully on the lip of the casket. She balanced there.

She looked into the casket.

She lowered her head.

She rested her muzzle on the center of Rook’s chest, on top of his folded hands.

She held it there.

I have, in my 51 years, witnessed approximately fifteen seconds of pure silence so deep and absolute that I could hear the blood moving in my own ears. Five of those seconds were in combat with my brother in 1991 in Iraq when our unit got pinned down by mortar fire and we lay flat in a ditch waiting to find out if we were going to live. The other ten seconds were in a funeral home parking lot in Grosse Pointe, Michigan, on the morning of September 14th, 2024, while my big brother’s 13-year-old Pit Bull rested her muzzle on his chest.

She stayed there for thirty seconds.

Then she lowered herself back down onto all fours.

She walked around to the side of the Harley.

She laid down on the asphalt next to the sidecar.

She put her head on her paws.

She thumped her tail. Once.

She was telling us she was ready.

Bear closed the casket lid.

He refastened the straps. He used a small leather thong from his belt to replace the one he had cut. He looked at me. He looked at Lyudmila. He looked at Mrs. Ksenia Demidov-Bourget, my brother’s elderly mother-in-law, who was holding onto the arm of her granddaughter Mrs. Anastasia Holloway-Demidov-Stallworth in the front row.

He nodded.

He swung his right leg over the saddle of the Panhead.

He started the engine.

The 1953 Harley-Davidson Panhead roared to life in the parking lot.

Mercy stood up.

She walked into her position behind the sidecar.

The procession started.

We rode from the funeral home on Mack Avenue in Grosse Pointe to Mount Olivet Cemetery on the east side of Detroit. Approximately seven miles. The procession was led by Bear on Rook’s Panhead with the casket in the sidecar and Mercy walking behind it. Behind Mercy were 198 motorcycles in formation, two abreast. I rode in the second row from the front, on my own 1998 Harley Road King, next to a member named Wrench Junior whose father — the original Wrench — Mercy had walked behind in 2022.

Mercy walked seven miles.

She did not stop. She did not break formation. She did not falter. She walked with her head down and her tail straight back and her shoulders even, the way she had walked behind the caskets of eight brothers before this one. Her job. Her work. Her ministry.

At one point — about three miles into the route, when we were turning onto Gratiot Avenue — a Detroit Police motorcycle escort officer pulled alongside Bear at a stoplight and saluted him. The officer looked back at Mercy walking behind the sidecar. He saluted her too. He told me later, when I tracked him down to thank him a month afterward — his name is Officer Thalia Bouchard-Cisneros, 39 years old, a six-year veteran of Detroit PD’s motorcycle unit — that he had never saluted a dog before in his career and he had not known he was going to do it.

He had just felt that he had to.

He told me, on the phone, that he had cried on his bike for about a mile after that.

We arrived at Mount Olivet Cemetery at 12:14 p.m.

The graveside service was held under a large white funeral tent that had been set up by the funeral home staff. The grave was already prepared — a clean six-foot rectangle of black earth lined with synthetic green turf around the edges, with the deep oak grain of the casket already visible at the bottom from where a hydraulic lowering device had been positioned to receive it.

The priest was Father Demitri Mackiewicz-Solomon, 71 years old, the chaplain of the Wayne County Iron Brothers since 1992. He had baptized Rook’s daughter Anastasia in 1996. He had presided over Rook and Lyudmila’s wedding anniversary blessing in 2014. He had been at every single one of the previous eight funeral processions Mercy had walked.

Father Mackiewicz-Solomon read from the Book of Ecclesiastes.

He read: “To everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven. A time to be born, and a time to die. A time to weep, and a time to laugh. A time to mourn, and a time to dance.”

He read for about 40 minutes.

Mercy lay next to the casket the entire time.

When the prayer was complete, six pallbearers — Bear, me, our Sergeant-at-Arms Diesel Pridgeon-Vance, our Road Captain Tornado Anand-Petrov, our chaplain’s son Junior Castellanos, and Rook’s son-in-law Mr. Tomas Stallworth-Lindqvist — took our positions to lift the casket and lower it into the grave.

Mercy stood up.

She walked to the side of the grave.

She stepped onto the synthetic green turf.

She looked down into the hole.

She looked back up at the casket.

She walked to the foot of the casket. She sat down. She watched as the six of us lifted the casket off the lowering device, swung it slightly, and set it onto the canvas straps that would feed it down into the earth.

The hydraulic device hissed.

The casket began to lower.

Mercy watched.

When the casket reached the bottom — about six feet down — the canvas straps released. The pulleys retracted. The grave was now a deep rectangular shaft with my big brother at the bottom and a small green tent over our heads and 200 bikers standing in concentric rings around the tent.

Mercy stepped onto the green turf at the edge of the grave.

She walked to the very lip.

She lay down at the edge of the grave with her head over the lip and her front paws hanging into the open air above the casket.

She did not whimper.

She did not move.

She just laid there.

Father Mackiewicz-Solomon began the final blessing.

He blessed the grave. He blessed the casket. He blessed the soul of my brother Rook Holloway-Demidov. He blessed Mercy.

He sprinkled holy water on the casket. He sprinkled a small amount of holy water on Mercy.

She did not flinch.

He said the final amen.

The first shovel of dirt was lifted by Bear.

He did not throw it on the casket. He held it. He looked at Mercy. He looked at me. He looked at Lyudmila.

He said, “We are going to wait.”

We waited.

For four hours.

Two hundred bikers stood in a cemetery in Detroit on a clear cool September afternoon for four hours while a 13-year-old Pit Bull laid at the edge of an open grave with her front paws hanging over the open air above the casket of her dead person.

Some of us sat down on the grass. Some of us stood. Some of us cried. Some of us did not. A few of us walked in slow loops around the perimeter of the cemetery to keep our legs from cramping. Mrs. Lyudmila Holloway-Demidov sat in a folding chair next to me. Mrs. Ksenia Demidov-Bourget, my brother’s mother-in-law, sat next to her in another chair. They held hands. They did not speak.

The sun moved across the September sky.

At about 4:18 p.m. — almost four hours after the casket had been lowered — Mercy lifted her head off the lip of the grave.

She turned her head and looked at Bear.

Bear walked over to her.

He sat down on the green turf next to her.

He said, “Mercy. Honey. Are you ready to go home.”

She licked his hand once.

Bear leaned down. He lifted her off the lip of the grave. All 65 pounds of her. His knees buckled a little but he held her.

He carried her in his arms across the cemetery to his pickup truck.

He set her in the passenger seat.

He buckled her seatbelt around her.

He closed the door.

The 200 of us still in the cemetery let out a single collective exhale.

The grave was filled in over the next 90 minutes by the cemetery crew while we watched. Bear stayed in the truck cab next to Mercy. He did not leave. He did not come back out for the filling-in.

When the grave was full and the dirt had been mounded carefully and a small wooden marker with Rook’s name had been placed at the head of the grave, Father Mackiewicz-Solomon said one final amen.

The 200 of us crossed ourselves.

We mounted our bikes.

We rode back to the clubhouse in Hamtramck.

Bear drove home with Mercy in his truck.

He took her back to Lyudmila’s house.

I want to tell you what happened that night.

Mercy went to her usual spot on the living-room carpet — the spot four feet from where Rook had died. She laid down. She put her head on her paws.

Lyudmila offered her food. She did not eat.

Lyudmila offered her water. She did not drink.

Lyudmila called me at 9:47 p.m.

She said, “Slow. She is not eating. She is not drinking. I am afraid.”

I drove to Lyudmila’s house.

I sat on the living room floor with Mercy for about two hours. I petted her. I offered her a piece of grilled chicken from my own kitchen that I had brought in a Tupperware. She licked my hand once. She would not eat the chicken. She would not drink.

She kept looking at the door.

I did not know what she was looking at the door for at the time.

I know now.

She was waiting for Rook to come home.

She had done this for him every weeknight for thirteen years when he came home from GM Hamtramck Assembly. She had done it for him every Saturday afternoon when he came home from the club’s weekly rides for eleven years. She knew the sound of his step. She knew the sound of his Panhead. She knew the click of his key in the lock.

She was waiting for him to come back to the house the way he had always come back.

I left around 11:30 p.m.

I told Lyudmila to call me at any hour if anything changed.

I drove home.

I tried to sleep.

I did not sleep well.

At 6:14 a.m. on the morning of Sunday, September 15th, 2024, I drove back over to Lyudmila’s house to feed Mercy breakfast and walk her around the block.

I let myself in with my key.

The house was quiet.

Lyudmila was asleep upstairs.

I walked into the living room.

Mercy was lying in her spot four feet from where Rook had died.

She was not breathing.

I knelt down on the carpet next to her. I put my hand on her side. Her body was still warm but her chest was not moving. Her eyes were partially open. They were looking at the door.

She had died sometime in the night.

She had died alone in the living room of the house she had shared with my brother for thirteen years, on the carpet four feet from where he had died six days before her, looking at the door he was never going to come through again.

I sat on the carpet next to her body and I cried for almost forty minutes.

I did not wake Lyudmila.

I called Bear.

He came over.

He had been awake. He had not slept. He was wearing the same clothes he had worn to the funeral.

He sat down on the carpet next to me. He put his hand on Mercy’s side. He cried with me for a few minutes. Then he stood up. He took out his phone. He called the Detroit Emergency Veterinary Center on Woodward Avenue.

He made an appointment to bring her in.

He carried her out of the house wrapped in Rook’s old Iron Brothers vest. The same vest that had been laid over Rook’s chest in the casket the day before, that had been removed before burial and returned to Lyudmila that evening. Lyudmila had laid it on the back of Rook’s recliner the night before. Mercy had slept with her head pressed against it.

Bear wrapped her in it.

He carried her out to my truck.

I drove him and Mercy to the vet.

Dr. Pernella Vance-Akimoto, 47 years old, the emergency veterinarian at the Detroit Emergency Veterinary Center on Woodward Avenue, examined Mercy’s body at 7:42 a.m. on the morning of September 15th, 2024.

She had been on call for the overnight shift. She was clean and professional and gentle and absolutely steady.

She listened with her stethoscope. She palpated Mercy’s belly. She looked at her gums. She checked her eyes. She lifted her ears. She checked her hips. She felt along her spine.

She set down her stethoscope.

She turned to Bear and to me.

She said, very quietly, “Gentlemen. I cannot find a medical cause of death. Her heart shows no signs of structural disease. Her organs feel normal for her age. She is 13. She is technically a senior dog. But there is no acute illness here. There is no obvious cancer. There is no medical event I can point to. Gentlemen — your dog appears to have simply stopped living. She made a choice. She did not eat. She did not drink. She did not want to continue. I have been a veterinarian for 22 years. I have seen this perhaps eight or nine times in my career. It is most common in elderly companion animals who have lost a primary human bond. Gentlemen — she refused to outlive him.”

She paused.

She said, “Gentlemen. I am sorry. She loved him.”

Bear sat down in the chair in the examination room and he put his head in his hands.

He cried for almost twenty minutes.

I cried with him.

Dr. Vance-Akimoto sat with us. She did not rush us. She put her hand on Bear’s shoulder.

She said, very softly, “Gentlemen. You can take her home. Or we can handle cremation here. Or we can — Bear, if you want, you can call your funeral home from yesterday. You can bury her where he is buried. It is not against any law I know of.”

Bear lifted his head.

He looked at me.

He said, “Slow. We are burying her next to him.”

I said, “Yes.”

I want to tell you about Mercy’s funeral.

Saturday, October 26th, 2024. Six weeks after Rook’s funeral. We held it at the same Mount Olivet Cemetery on the east side of Detroit. We bought the plot exactly six feet south of Rook’s grave — the legal minimum spacing required by the cemetery for a separate burial — for $1,400. We had pooled the money among club members.

We had 73 of the original 200 bikers come back for Mercy’s service.

Father Demitri Mackiewicz-Solomon presided. He had agreed without hesitation when Bear asked him.

We had a small wooden casket — a 24-inch by 18-inch by 14-inch hand-built box of cedar made by Mr. Marek Wisniewski-Pawlowski, the same cabinetmaker who had made Rook’s casket. He had refused payment. He had told Bear, on the phone, “Bear. She walked behind eight of my caskets. She walked behind Rook’s. She does not get charged for hers.”

Mercy was inside the box.

She was wearing her funeral collar with the small silver Maltese cross.

She was lying on a folded version of Rook’s old Iron Brothers vest — the same one she had been wrapped in when Bear carried her out of the house.

The casket was driven from the funeral home to the cemetery in the same sidecar of the same 1953 Harley-Davidson Panhead that had carried Rook’s casket six weeks earlier. Bear drove it. The 72 other bikes rode behind it in a procession of two abreast.

There was no dog walking behind the sidecar.

We had decided, as a club, not to have a substitute dog walk in her place. It would not have been right. Mercy was the only dog who could have done what Mercy did. There would not be another funeral escort for the Wayne County Iron Brothers. We retired the position with her.

When we arrived at the cemetery, Father Mackiewicz-Solomon read a short eulogy.

He said, in part: “This dog walked with us for eleven years. She walked with us for our sons and our brothers and our fathers. She walked us to our graves with a dignity I did not always see in human beings. She walked behind Rook last. She walked because she loved him. She did not walk to his grave because she did not believe he was gone until we let her see him. She walked when we opened the casket and let her say goodbye. And then she went with him. She is buried six feet from him today because she would not have wanted to be anywhere else. Brothers and sisters — we are here to say goodbye to a dog who taught us how to walk to our own graves. May God have mercy on her soul. We will. Amen.”

The 73 of us said amen.

We lowered the small cedar box into the grave.

When the dirt was placed over her, every single one of the 73 bikers in the cemetery raised our right hands and placed them flat on our chests over our hearts.

We held that salute for exactly 30 seconds.

Bear had counted it out under his breath.

Thirty seconds had been the exact length of time Mercy had rested her muzzle on Rook’s chest in the funeral home parking lot six weeks before.

We were returning the salute.

I want to write down a few things before I finish.

The first thing. The small bronze plate that sits between Rook’s grave and Mercy’s grave at Mount Olivet Cemetery on the east side of Detroit was paid for by all 200 of the original bikers from Rook’s funeral. It cost $640. It was engraved by Mr. Alasdair Klingerman-Bouchard, 80 years old, the same Klingerman’s Jewelry engraver in New Castle, Pennsylvania who had engraved a brass tag for a beagle named Lyle in a story I told you a few weeks ago. He had heard about Rook and Mercy through the regional motorcycle community. He had offered to do the engraving for free. The plate reads:

ROOK HOLLOWAY-DEMIDOV — 1966-2024 — PRESIDENT, WAYNE COUNTY IRON BROTHERS MC MERCY — 2011-2024 — FUNERAL ESCORT, WAYNE COUNTY IRON BROTHERS MC

FOR ELEVEN YEARS SHE WALKED OUR BROTHERS HOME. THEN SHE WENT WITH HIM.

I drive out to Mount Olivet every Sunday morning. I bring two small bouquets — one for Rook, one for Mercy. I sit on the grass between their graves for about half an hour. I tell Rook what is happening in the club. I tell Mercy what is happening with Lyudmila and with Bear. I cry every time. I do not try to stop.

The second thing. Bear Castellanos-Strathmore was formally elected President of the Wayne County Iron Brothers in November of 2024. He took over Rook’s position permanently. He moved into Rook’s old office at the clubhouse. He kept everything exactly the way Rook had it — except he hung one new framed photograph on the wall. The photograph shows Mercy resting her muzzle on Rook’s chest in the open casket on the morning of September 14th, 2024. It was taken by Mr. Cornelius Hartwell-Bouchard, 64 years old, the funeral director, who had been documenting the service quietly with a small camera and who had asked our permission afterward to take the photograph as a remembrance. Bear had said yes.

The photograph is framed in plain black wood. Below it, on a small brass plaque, are the eleven words Bear spoke in the parking lot: “Mercy will not walk with him because she does not believe it is him. We have to give her the choice.”

The third thing. Mrs. Lyudmila Holloway-Demidov, my brother’s widow, has stayed close to all of us. She comes to the clubhouse for Sunday dinners every other week. She is 57 now. She still lives in the small brick ranch house on Florian Street. She has not changed the spot on the living-room carpet where Rook died and where Mercy died six days later. She has placed a small handmade rug there — a rectangle of woven wool in deep navy blue with a small silver Maltese cross pattern at the center — to mark the spot. She told me, when she had it commissioned in November of 2024 from a Hamtramck textile artist named Ms. Wisteria Pawlowski-Demir, that she did not want anyone else’s feet to walk on that spot until she joined them.

I understood.

The fourth thing. Mrs. Ksenia Demidov-Bourget, my brother’s elderly Russian mother-in-law, passed away peacefully in her sleep in Vladivostok on June 22nd, 2025. She was 80. She had returned to Russia in October of 2024, three weeks after Mercy’s funeral. She had told Lyudmila, on the phone, that she had been waiting to bury Rook before she went home, and that she could not wait any longer because her own time was coming. She was right. She knew. Lyudmila flew to Vladivostok for the funeral. Bear and I sent flowers.

The fifth thing. We have, since October of 2024, kept the photograph of Mercy resting her muzzle on Rook’s chest framed in the front window of our clubhouse on Joseph Campau Avenue in Hamtramck, facing outward toward the street. It can be seen from the sidewalk. It is the first thing anyone sees when they walk past the clubhouse. We have had people stop on the sidewalk and stand and cry. We have had bikers from out of state ride out of their way to come see it. We have had a small group of strangers — including a 24-year-old EMT named Mr. Lazarus Bouchard-Sanchez who lost his own father in a motorcycle accident in 2023 — come into the clubhouse on a Saturday afternoon in February of 2025 specifically to thank us for the photograph being visible. He told us, sitting at our bar with a cup of black coffee, that the photograph had helped him understand his father’s death. Bear sat with him for an hour. They cried together.

We do not turn anyone away who has seen the photograph and needed to come in.

I want to end with one more thing.

I want to tell you what Bear told me on the morning of October 26th, 2024 — the day we buried Mercy — when he and I and four other club members were sitting in the cemetery on the grass between Rook’s grave and the freshly-filled small grave six feet away, after the 73 bikers had ridden home and we were the last ones left.

Bear was sitting cross-legged on the grass.

He had a small folded piece of paper in his hand.

He had been carrying it since the morning of Rook’s funeral.

He said, “Slow. I want to tell you something. I want you to keep it. I do not want anyone else to know.”

I said, “Bear. Yes.”

He said, “Slow. On the morning of September 14th, the morning of Rook’s funeral, when Mercy refused to walk and I knelt down in front of her — Slow. I want you to know what I was actually thinking. I had a thought that I have not been able to get out of my head for six weeks.”

He paused.

He said, “Slow. When I knelt down in front of Mercy, and she looked at me, and she would not move — I had a thought that was not about Mercy. I had a thought about Rook. I thought: ‘If I were in that casket, would my dog come walk behind it?'”

He paused again.

He said, “Slow. I do not have a dog. I have not had a dog since 1997. I have spent 27 years not letting myself love a dog because I did not want to outlive one. And in that moment in the parking lot, kneeling in front of Mercy, I realized I had been wrong for 27 years. It is not about outliving the dog. It is about whether the dog wants to walk behind you.”

He paused.

He said, “Slow. I am going to get a dog. I am going to get him in the spring. I am going to make sure he wants to walk behind me when my time comes. And I am going to deserve that walk. Slow — that is what Mercy taught me. That is what my brother’s dog taught me on the morning of his funeral. I will be grateful for it until I am in my own grave.”

He gave me the piece of paper.

I unfolded it.

It was a small handwritten note in his careful blocky handwriting.

It said:

“Mercy. Thank you for walking with my brothers. Thank you for walking with my best friend. Thank you for showing me what kind of man I want to be when I am in the ground. — Bear. October 26, 2024.”

I refolded the note.

I gave it back to him.

He put it in the pocket over his heart.

He adopted a 6-year-old retired police K9 German Shepherd named Vasili in May of 2025. Vasili sleeps at the foot of his bed every night. Vasili is going to come with him to my own funeral one day, whenever that is, and walk behind my casket. We have agreed on this in writing. It is the only thing in my will that I have notarized.

If you have a dog in your life — please tell her tonight that you love her, and that you will not ask her to outlive you, only to walk with you for the time she has. That is enough. That is everything.

If you do not have a dog in your life and you have been waiting — please consider that Mercy spent eleven years walking behind brothers she was not blood-related to, and that the walk is one of the most sacred things a dog can offer a human. It might be one of the most sacred things a human can be offered.

My big brother Rook is buried next to a 13-year-old Pit Bull named Mercy at Mount Olivet Cemetery on the east side of Detroit, Michigan.

Mercy walked our brothers home for eleven years.

On the ninth one, she went with him.

I will love her for the rest of my life.

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