Part 2

I’m Arlo. I’m forty-four.

I sell agricultural equipment — combines, mostly — out of a dealership on the highway. My wife Marguerite is a dental hygienist. We’ve got Beckham and a nine-year-old girl, Posey.

We live in a town of about six thousand people in southeast Nebraska. I grew up eleven miles from where I’m sitting.

The dog’s name is Dewey.

He’s about seven. Forty-three pounds. Beagle and something taller — his legs are too long for a beagle and his head’s too narrow.

Tricolor. White chest, white front legs, brown and black saddle over the back, a brown face with a white stripe down the middle of it that’s a little crooked.

He’s got one ear that’s noticeably shorter than the other, from an old injury nobody ever explained to us.

And he’s got a bare patch on his left side where they shaved him for an echocardiogram in 2019 that never grew back right.

Two things Beckham told me in the first three days that I did not think about at all.

The first: the dog wouldn’t go through the shed door if it was dark inside.

Beckham had to leave a light on. Every single time. He said Dewey would stop at the doorway and not come in, and the second the light was on he’d walk right through.

I thought, huh, spooky dog.

The second: he knew “off.”

Beckham said the dog got up on the old couch in the shed, and Beckham said “off” without thinking about it, the way you do, and the dog got down immediately.

A dog that’s been tied to a flagpole and abandoned knows a house command.

I filed that under nothing. I filed all of it under nothing.

Part 3

Beckham hid that dog for three days.

I need to describe what that actually took, because I’ve thought about it a lot and it’s the part that tells you who my son is.

We have a detached shed behind the garage, insulated, with a workbench and an old couch and a space heater I use when I’m working out there in the winter.

He got that dog in there at around one in the morning on New Year’s Day while nineteen adults were in our living room.

He took a fleece blanket off his own bed. He took a mixing bowl out of the cabinet for water. He fed him out of the bag of dog food we still had in the garage from our last dog, Trudy, who died in 2021 and whose food I had never thrown out, which is its own thing.

He went out there four times a day for three days. He slept out there two of the three nights, on that couch, with the space heater on and the door cracked for air.

We thought he was in his room. He’s thirteen. You don’t go check.

And here’s the part that got me.

The note.

I’m going to give it exactly. It was on a piece of lined notebook paper, folded four times into a square about an inch across.

The handwriting was small and neat and it slanted hard to the right.

His name is Dewey. He is scared of fireworks so please keep him inside tonight. He has a heart condition and he takes a pill every day for it, if he doesn’t have it he will get very tired and his stomach will swell. I cannot afford the medicine anymore. I have tried everything. Please, if you are a better person than me, help him. I am so sorry, Dewey.

That’s what my son read standing under a streetlight.

The next morning — New Year’s Day — Beckham walked a mile and a half to the veterinary clinic on the east side of town and stood at the door until somebody let him in.

He told the front desk person he’d found a dog with a heart condition and he had a note.

They let him talk to a vet tech named Yolonda Frechette, who was in doing feedings on the holiday. She looked at the note and she took Beckham back into an exam room and she went through her system.

And she found him.

Dewey. Seven-year-old beagle mix. Mitral valve disease diagnosed in 2019. Client of record, last seen fourteen months prior.

The client name meant nothing to Beckham because he was seven years old the last time anybody said it out loud in our house.

Yolonda couldn’t release client information to a thirteen-year-old. She told him that.

What she did do — and I’ve since thanked this woman in person twice — was give him a bottle of the medication out of pocket, thirty tablets, and write the dosage on the bag in marker.

It came to forty-one dollars.

He paid her in cash. New Year’s money from his grandparents.

He gave that dog a pill every morning for three days in a piece of cheese and nobody in my house knew any of it was happening.

He was going to tell us. That’s the thing. He told me later he was just trying to make sure the dog was okay first, because he figured we’d say no if the dog was sick.

He was probably right and I don’t love knowing that about myself.

Part 4

Marguerite found him on the fourth of January.

She went out to the shed at about four in the afternoon to get a bin of Christmas decorations and she opened the door and there was a beagle on the couch under our son’s fleece blanket.

She came in the house and called Beckham’s name in a voice I know.

He came downstairs and I came out of the kitchen and we stood in the garage and my kid told us everything.

The flagpole. The fireworks. His hands over the dog’s ears. Three days. The clinic. The forty-one dollars.

Marguerite was not yelling. That’s the first thing I noticed. She had her arms folded and she was listening in a way that was already past being mad.

And then Beckham said there was a note.

He went and got it out of the pocket of his hoodie, where it had been for four days, folded and refolded until the creases were soft.

He handed it to his mother.

She unfolded it.

I was standing six feet away. I watched my wife’s face while she read a piece of notebook paper.

She got about three lines in and she made a sound I had heard exactly once before, in 2017, in a hospital hallway.

The coffee cup she’d been holding in her other hand went on the concrete.

Beckham said, “Mom?”

She sat down on the floor of our garage in her work clothes with that piece of paper in both hands.

And she said, “This is Corrine’s handwriting.”

Part 5

I have to back up six years.

Corrine Vandersloot is Marguerite’s younger sister. She’s thirty-nine now. She was thirty-three then.

In 2017, their mother died, and what happened after that is a thing that happens in a lot of families and that people don’t talk about because it makes everybody look small.

There was a house. There was a second marriage and a stepbrother and a will that was eleven years old and hadn’t been updated.

There were four months of it, and then there was a conversation at a kitchen table in Beatrice, Nebraska, in which things were said by both of them that neither of them could take back.

Corrine left. She moved. She changed her number.

Marguerite tried. I want that on record because my wife is not a person who lets things go.

She wrote letters to an address that stopped working in 2019. She sent a Christmas card every single year and three of them came back. She found a Facebook account that hadn’t been posted on since 2018 and sent a message to it every few months for four years.

She drove to Lincoln twice on rumors.

Six years.

And in that time my wife did not talk about her sister except about twice a year, always late, always after a glass of wine, always ending with her saying “she knows where I am” in a voice that meant something completely different.

Corrine had a dog. Marguerite knew that. She’d gotten him in 2016, before everything.

She had never known his name.

So now understand what was happening on the floor of my garage.

My son had spent New Year’s Eve with his hands over the ears of his own aunt’s dog, and neither of them had any idea.

Beckham said, “Who’s Corrine?”

And that’s how I found out my son did not remember he had an aunt.

Part 6

Yolonda Frechette gave us the address the next morning, which she was probably not supposed to do, and which she did because Marguerite drove over there and stood at the counter and said “the client is my sister” and then couldn’t say anything else.

It was an apartment complex in Lincoln, fifty minutes north.

We went on Saturday the sixth. All four of us plus a dog in a crate in the back of my truck, which in hindsight was an insane thing to do with no warning and which is exactly what we did.

I’m not going to write down what happened at that door.

That’s theirs. Marguerite has read this and asked me to keep it, and she’s right.

What I’ll say is that it took a while for anybody to say a complete sentence, and that my son stood behind us the entire time holding a leash and not saying anything, and that when Corrine finally looked past her sister and saw that dog, her legs went and I caught her.

Here’s what we learned over the next several hours, sitting in an apartment with almost nothing in it.

She’d lost her job in 2023. She’d been doing warehouse work and her hours went to nothing and then went away.

Dewey’s medication — a combination of three drugs by then, because mitral valve disease progresses — ran about a hundred and ten dollars a month.

She’d been choosing. That’s the plainest way to say it. For most of a year she had been choosing between the dog’s pills and things I’m not going to list.

She’d tried to surrender him twice. Both shelters within range were full. She was told about a rescue in Omaha that had a six-week waiting list and a policy about dogs with existing medical conditions.

She’d gone to the football field in our town on New Year’s Eve.

Our town. Fifty minutes out of her way.

And that’s the thing that put me on the arm of a chair.

Marguerite asked her, quietly, why there.

And Corrine said she’d been driving around for three hours trying to find somewhere with people — somewhere a dog would be found by morning — and she ended up on the highway going south, and she got off at our exit.

She said she knew we lived there.

She said she hadn’t planned it and she didn’t know why she got off at that exit and she’d driven around our town for forty minutes before she did it.

She tied him to a flagpole at a school football field four blocks from our house on the one night of the year everybody in that town is outside.

Then she sat in her car in the lot for about fifteen minutes and then she drove home to Lincoln.

She did not know Beckham would be the one.

She’s said that about forty times since, to different people, in different ways. She did not know.

But she got off at our exit.

And then everything from those first three days came back and turned over.

The dog wouldn’t walk into a dark shed. Corrine had left a lamp on for him for seven years. She said he’d had something happen as a puppy before she got him and he wouldn’t go into a dark room.

He knew “off.” Because he’d lived on somebody’s couch for seven years and was told to get off it.

He pressed against my son and wouldn’t leave his leg. Beckham thought it was fear.

Maybe it was. But that’s also a dog who had lived with exactly one person and had been alone for four hours and found a human being in the dark.

And the note.

If you are a better person than me.

My wife’s sister wrote that about herself, on a piece of notebook paper, in a parking lot, in the cold, having already decided she was the villain of her own life.

And the person who found it was her nephew, who put his hands over that dog’s ears for twenty minutes and then spent forty-one dollars of Christmas money on a stranger’s medication without telling anybody.

Marguerite said something in the truck on the drive home that Saturday that I’ve never forgotten.

She said, “I wrote her for six years and she never got one of them.”

Then she said, “A dog got through.”

Part 7

Corrine moved down here in March.

Not in with us. She was extremely clear about that and she was right. There’s a duplex on Fillmore and she’s been there since.

She got on at the school district in food service and then moved to the office, which is what she’d been doing before all of this.

Dewey stayed with us for the first ten months because that’s where his routine was by then and because Corrine could not afford the medication and would not take money, and Marguerite worked out an arrangement where the dog lived with us and Corrine came over every day, which let everybody save face in a way I think was necessary.

Around Thanksgiving that stopped being a fiction and he went home with her.

He lived five more years. He was twelve when he went, which the cardiologist in Lincoln told us was remarkable for a dog diagnosed at four.

The note is in a frame.

That was Posey’s idea, actually — she was nine and she asked why we kept a crumpled piece of paper in a kitchen drawer, and Marguerite said because it’s important, and Posey said then why is it in a drawer.

It’s laminated, in a plain black frame, on the wall in our hallway by the back door.

You have to be standing close to read it. Most people who come in our house never notice it.

And here’s what we do now.

Every New Year’s Eve, the four of us — five, with Corrine — leave our own party at about a quarter to midnight.

We walk four blocks to Prairie Ridge with a thermos.

We sit in the bleachers by the north end and we wait for the fairgrounds display, and we watch it from there instead of from our own driveway.

The first year we brought Dewey and it was a mistake and we never did it again. He stays home with the TV on and a lamp lit.

We just go sit.

Beckham’s twenty-one now and he came home for it last year from Kearney without being asked.

Nobody says anything about why we do it. We stand up at 12:22 when it ends and we walk home.

Part 8

Dewey died in March of last year.

Corrine had him on the floor of her living room with a lamp on, which I mention because it mattered to her a great deal and the vet who came to the house understood immediately.

Beckham drove down from school.

He got there in time. He got down on the floor and he did the thing he did when he was thirteen, which is that he put a hand on each side of that dog’s head, over his ears.

There was nothing to block out. It was three in the afternoon on a Tuesday and the quietest room I’ve ever stood in.

He did it anyway.

Corrine said, “He still does that.”

And Beckham said, “Yeah.”

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